Monthly Archive for November, 2008

Piece of crap!

I hate our scanner! I’ve been trying to scan a postcard from a pub we went to after Banana’s funeral. I’ve meant to post this for a while now, because Lumpy and I had such a surreal and wonderful experience there. We were driving around towards the downtown area because we thought, “surely we can find a non chain food restaurant/bar/pub in this area…” Lo and behold, we came upon this little treaure. We saw a neon sign in the window for a non-American beer and thought that we might just be in for a treat. We were. We went in and sat down and it was like we had left Florida suddenly. Actual Irish were at the bar and sitting around the pub. Whuh? In Tampa?

Here’s the pub, by the way:  http://www.fourgreenfields.com/ We had so much fun. We were surrounded by shouting, laughing, flirting, and all you can hope to find in a pub. We’ll see how it compares to Dublin ‘09, but until then, we have a few Chicago pubs we can compare Four Green Fields to, and frankly, it totally measured up. After a while, a musician started playing, and we knew we’d hit the ball out of the park. There were a couple of young trendy folks ordering mixed drinks (at a pub?!?! whuh?!?!), but they were out on the rear patio…or at least, mostly out of our view. We loved our server, she was friendly, yet left us alone (which is exactly what we like in a server), and we basically didn’t have to talk to anyone but each other.

Sometimes I’m not sure why this experience struck us so hard, but I think it comes down to Banana leading us there. We were quite dreading the bar/restaurant experience in Tampa, since neither one of us is trendy, exciting or hip, but we passed this bar and something clicked. We even did a loop to try to find it again. We were comfortable, relaxed, and happy, which is more than we could say about the whole day. I cried most of that day, dreading saying goodbye to our girl. She led me to what I needed that night. F*#ck yeah.

**Oh, and to the family that had the deaf daughter; hell yeah. She was more expressive than most speaking children I know, and frankly, I know a lot of girls in her age group right now, thanks to She Runs. She played hard, and it was fun to watch her. Your family will never in a thousand years read this, but holy crap I loved watching you all.

Thanks Four Green Fields. You didn’t know what you were doing for us that night. It had been a hellish, hellish, painful day. We found a small piece of what we know in a place we never wanted to be in the first place.

Things I’m grateful for…the short list:

1. Lumpy. The original feminist man. The man who lets a woman be who a woman should be. Everything a femi-nazi, angry, offended, hurt, working to fix the world, woman could dream for. He’s all that and a bag of chips. No, really. He is. And MORE. He helps me heal myself.

2. Being able to live my life the way I want. This feeds into #1. Lumpy is willing to provide me the salary that lets me: start a non-profit, get massage, chiropractic care, and acupuncture; teach in the evening; run a girls’ running group; work part/almost full time; love my co-workers. All of those things mean more to me than any full time job has ever meaned to me, or ever will mean to me.

3. Feminism. I recognize who I am, who other women are, what BANANA worked for, what the previous generations gave to me…all of it and more. Women died so that I could vote. I GET IT. I give you my thanks. I don’t know that I could give what you gave. I am in love with Alice Paul and Carrie Chapman Catt. I love Susan B. Anthony, I love EVERY WOMAN who gave that I do not know about. I have educated myself, there’s just a list so long that I do not know how to acknowledge them all here.

3. I love my options. The women above feed into this…however, I have the option to never have a child, which suits me BEST.

4. The Fuzz. Who can say what pets mean? The best and the worst of me are like my relationship with my pets. I love them so much, but I have to let them be who they are so that we can all co-exist. I have to let go in order to have the best of who they are. I control, but I let go on a daily basis. It’s strange, at best. It’s hard to be responsible with such cute-ness.

5. Me. I’m grateful for busting my ass to be who I am. I’m no longer weak. I’ve worked to be the best me I know how to be. I’ve worked to not accept less than great or good in my life. I no longer think that”okay” is okay with me. I am allowed to have high standards. I am allowed to expect much, much more. I am living the life I intended to live. I do not surround myself with people who do not believe in me anymore. I am grateful that I learned my worth… I will never forget it. Ever.

Giving Thanks

Thank you to all who have been a part of Toots And Sally.

Here’s a small smattering of how The Sally & Lumpy celebrated.

Yeah, this is a Duck.

Yes, we all knew this…

In regards to Lily

Is your cat plotting to kill you?

26.2!

“We must embrace pain and use it as fuel for our journey.” -Kenji Miyazawa

“Pain passes, but the beauty remains.” -Renoir

Had a couple of tough days.

I stayed home from work yesterday and I’m home today. I’m sleeping A LOT and trying to process how I feel. My conclusion? Depressed. Lily has been greatly concerned about me and wants me to be sure than I’m always in a position where she can sap the heat from my body, sit with me and take care of my emotional needs. Guinness is even not being annoying and in my face.

I have women’s running to teach tonight, and I’m glad for the group interaction. French class last night went well, and we spent most of the classs talking about food culture and dining in France. Fun.

I’m loving the weather! More snow, please!

The taper.

The taper arrived sooner than expected…a week in advance to be exact.  Needless to say, I missed my 20 miler and the following week’s 12 miler….  I’m a little concerned that I may be lacking the physical and emotional capabilitites I need to complete this marathon.  I originally inteded to run this marathon in honor of Pito, to celebrate his life.  He knew I was training for it and was excited about coming to see the marathon.  Now it’s more about Banana, or rather hoping that Banana’s spirit will be with me to simply help me get through it somehow honoring Pito in the process.  I want my friends and family to be there, to cheer for me, to support me, but at the same time I just want to run alone so nobody can see how painful it’s going to be for me.

The taper has been ok.  I’m finally getting some sleep and not struggling so much to make time for my runs (it helps that they’re a lot shorter now).  My knee is feeling a bit better, but I am now working on a sore throat/minor cough that started a day or two ago.  Today’s 3 miler was a little tiring, a little emotional, a bit warm, and very muggy, but it felt good to complete it.  I only have 2 more short midweek runs to do before the marathon…should be a breeze.  The weather is looking promising for this weekend, looks like a cool front will be moving in just in time for race day.  Oh yeah, I will also get to meet some more Big Cats.  About a dozen of us from all over the country will be there on race day and we will meet and carb load together the night before.  Something to look forward to….

Haggis+Car

Crap! Haggis got out! Stole a car…

It’s not bad weather…

First Snowfall, 2008!

First Snowfall, 2008!

…it’s bad clothing choices.

Choices. Clothing. Yeah…that time of year again.

Couple days ago, DAWG and I went for a walk. I forgot about the arctic breeze that is a permanent fixture blowing off the SE quadrant of Lake Harriet. Needless to say, my right ear was COLD. Perhaps the baseball cap wasn’t the right clothing choice.

The next day, the day Sally tried to kill meagain–, I managed to get it right. Lightweight running pant, long sleeved duofold t-shirt, EMS vest (sorry REI but I really like my EMS gear), headband, and Jack Skellington itty-bitty gloves.

Yeah, nearly dead, I had a good run. Thanks Sally! No, really! I mean it!

We all need to keep running. We all need to keep moving forward.

Especially now that the weather is nearly perfect.

DWAG.

DWAG.

I was NOT trying to kill Lumpy.

We ran with Guinness yesterday, and of course, since it’s getting cold, well, I’m running faster. Also, we were running shortly before FÜD time for the animals, so Guinness was sprinting, in an effort to more quickly get to FÜD time. I felt strong, though I kept creeping away from Lumpy.

I just completed the latest running cd. It’s very dance track-ish, but I like it. I’ll be selling copies out of our garage starting this afternoon. Or not. Toots and Sally Run Through 2008.

I have to write up a French lesson for tomorrow. They are going through new material like it’s toilet paper, so tomorrow we’ll cover avoir, restaurant vocab, how to talk about age, and -ir verbs. That’s a lot for a 90 minute class!

And now I’m off for a run!