That is the extent of what I feel right now. People kept checking in with me today; people whom I had not seen in a while at work, for whatever reasons. I kept telling them that I was almost done with school, we laughed about my “Barbie the Oppressor” paper, etc. …but I’m quite uncertain. Have I just wasted two years? Why did I bother? Who is going to want to hire a hippy, feminist, tree-hugging, 37 (yep, it’s about to happen) year old, angry woman? Of course, my inner cocky response is WHY NOT?!?!?! With a few expletives tacked on the end. I am uncertain that I will have a “real job” anytime in the near or not so near future. I am uncertain about my future “running career.” I am uncertain that I can be the person my dog thinks I am/can be. It’s disconcerting for someone who is fairly certain most of the time that things will always work out for her. I have a nebulous future and I have nothing to cling to to guide me. (Not that Lumpy is not solid and supportive; that’s not what I mean.) All I know right now for sure is that we are going to Ireland next year, I am going back to Russia next year, and that I WILL GRADUATE. Other than that, no frigging idea. I am too old to be this uncertain.
Oh, crap, let’s talk running. Lumpy and I have decided to run the Frozen 1/2, as I have previously posted. I need to start REAL TRAINING. I have been cutting corners, slacking off, taking it easy, not pushing, blah, blah, blah, blah. I re-read a bunch of our Paris posts last night because I am lacking inspiration. Today’s run was actually decent. I had pain in my right foot, pain in my left (the bad one) knee, and pain in my left hamstring, but as you have all read before, I believe in Dog, and she came through for me splendidly. She had decided today that she was Official Lake Harriet Purveyor of Joy. Or, President and Most Active Member of the Lake Harriet Greeting Society. All in all, it added up to a whole lot of fun, snouts asunder, and a little bit of barking. Really, what more is there?
Did you ever walk into a room and forget why you walked in? I think that is how dogs spend their lives. ~Sue Murphy
If your dog is fat, you’re not getting enough exercise. ~Author Unknown
Dogs are not our whole life, but they make our lives whole. ~Roger Caras
